My Experiences with Meditation
Meditation Series: Chapter 1 – ‘Art of Living’
I thought meditation would heal me. Instead, it took me on an unexpected rollercoaster—one that left me questioning everything.
I started my spiritual journey in 2009 when both my professional and personal life were in shambles. I was physically, mentally, and emotionally burnt out. But asking for help? That was alien to me. I had always believed I could handle everything on my own. However, anxiety attacks and migraines forced me to accept that it was high time for a change. As countless self-help books suggested, I turned to the most recommended solution for stress—meditation. And so, my journey began…
The Highs: My First Meditation Experience
My first experiment with meditation was with the ‘Art of Living’ course, specifically the Sudarshan Kriya, a combination of breathing exercises and meditation. I enrolled in a five-day course, spending an hour daily in deep practice and spiritual sessions.
Oh my! It was magical. If you begin a meditation practice during a high-stress period, the impact is drastic and immediate. Stress melts away, the world seems brighter, and optimism flows effortlessly. I could physically feel the transformation. My body felt lighter, my mind clearer, and my confidence restored.
One meditation course, and I felt reborn. It was a miracle!
The Turning Point: The Euphoria That Led to Big Decisions
The surge of confidence that followed was intoxicating. I felt invincible, ready to take charge of my life. But what I didn’t realize was that drastic changes made in a high-emotional state can have lasting consequences.
In that newfound boldness, I made two life-altering decisions—I ended my relationship and quit my job. Did I regret them? Not exactly. Looking back, it feels like destiny played its part. I found another job, moved on, and even enjoyed a few months of relaxation. But then, reality hit me hard.
The sudden changes and emotional upheaval led me into a deep depression. That’s when I realized that the powerful effects of meditation need to be handled with care. The initial euphoria can be overwhelming—like getting too much power without being trained for it. And if you don’t continue practicing, like I didn’t, you are left hanging between two worlds.
The Struggle: Why I Couldn’t Keep It Up
I tried to maintain my meditation practice, but it wasn’t easy. I would either lose count of breaths or fall asleep mid-way. 😆
The experience was so profound the first time that I kept chasing that same high, but it never returned in the same way. Now, I understand why people compare meditation to an addiction—not because it’s harmful, but because once you’ve tasted that deep peace, you crave it again and again.
With time and wisdom, I’ve realized that meditation isn’t about chasing an extraordinary high—it’s about consistency. Any meditation technique works as long as it is done regularly.
The Crash: Returning to Square One
Because I wasn’t consistent, my migraines and breathing issues resurfaced over the next two years. While they weren’t as severe, they were still a constant reminder of what I had lost. Professionally, things were fine, but personally, I felt emotionally drained.
Stress at work is manageable. But when personal relationships suffer, the emotional turmoil is far more intense. I realized that meditation itself hadn’t led me into depression—stopping it did. The sudden highs and lows made me vulnerable. We are not used to such drastic inner shifts in a short time.
Lessons Learned: Finding My Own Path
I eventually accepted that Sudarshan Kriya wasn’t for me. Don’t get me wrong—it’s an incredible technique. I still recommend it to others, including my brother. But meditation is personal. What works for one person may not work for another.
This realization marked the beginning of a new chapter—my search for the meditation technique that truly aligns with me.
A Note on ‘Art of Living’
‘Art of Living’ is a global foundation headquartered in Bangalore, India. Founded by Sri Sri Ravi Shankar in 1981, its Sudarshan Kriya technique has transformed millions of lives worldwide.
Final Thoughts
Looking back, I don’t regret my journey. Meditation gave me incredible insights, but I learned the hard way that it isn’t a quick fix. It’s not about chasing bliss—it’s about building resilience, one breath at a time.
If you’re starting your meditation journey, my advice? Go slow. Stay consistent. And find the practice that feels right for YOU.
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